Growing old , not up

 Today I was looking back at my FaceBook memories , from 7-9 years ago. I realized how lost , anxious  and sad I was. In college ,when I became a full time student with a part time job, I gave up so much of what brought me joy and kept me grounded in my faith. It was all because I was "too busy" ( even though I wasted my time procrastinating on assignments but still getting good grades about 75% of the time). Recently I realized God wasn't distant, I was.  I was going through the motions and trying to appear as fine IRL. Those posts screamed for attention but that wasn't what I needed. I've found that in these past 2- 3 years I've been finally getting into a better place. Yes teaching was stressful  , I got some tough news ( twice). I realized I shouldn't  keep trying to slide by as I always had. I started taking better care of myself but also taking time to help other people. I branched out and met alot of great women. I started making time for hobbies I ...

 ( this was written back in May before I got married, I just edited added on and published now) Ever since I was 19, I had been waiting to feel like an adult. 18 didn't count because I was in my final year of high school then. I felt like a late bloomer in every sense . I didn't have my first boyfriend until right after high school . I didn't get my first  job and  drivers licenses until after I was already in my early 20's ( in that order , it was awkward that first year  having to wait for my mom to pick me up from work). When everyone else seems to have nice skin, I'm still dealing with acne. Then I finally moved out of my parents house 3 years ago, renting from my parents. Then I got to put my car title and insurance in my name. Finally this week I was able to officially buy my house. In two weeks I'm getting married to the man I've been with since graduating high school. If I compare myself to my coworkers , I still don't feel like quite am adult be...